I got this stuff for my birthday last month! ( from my cousin Alisa)
I locked it away and hid the key.
If I ever really could share it
You wouldn’t look at me the same I swear it.
I’ve seen things I shouldn’t have to see
But the only one who ever knew was me.
I buried my emotions deep inside my soul
All I want to do is close my eyes
It’s like an eternal torture that never dies
These voices that fill my head
Telling me I’m way better off dead
This pain of living hurts my heart
Should I have ended it from the start?
It’s like when I get home I take off a mask
Faking happiness is nearly an impossible task
But some how I manage to get by
Going through everyday about to cry
One day maybe it’ll be okay
But of course that day is not today.
Will this pain ever go away?
Maybe tomorrow but not today.